Oh hello - didn't see you there

Hey there world of the widened interwebs stuff. I know I've been away for a while and I'm sorry. What's that? No baby, don't be like that. 

I've just been pretend-super-busy with things. I'm working and have been for just over a week now. I got to work the cash register which I admittedly hated. I'm learning that I'm really not as much a fan of these 6am shifts as I thought I would be. I think I'm getting old. I like that I'm done by like 11:30 and have the entire day ahead of me, but it doesn't really fit my night owl lifestyle overall. Especially since I still have trouble falling asleep before 2am. And when you have to get up by 5:15, it doesn't leave one with much energy left. So I'm still searching for another job. I actually applied for one on Monday which allows me to utilize my masters degree! One of the only ones in the state of ohio where I can do that. Still waiting to hear back. And their ad basically was a reflection of a bad date. We'll call you, you don't call us. But we will definitely call you if we're interested later. And now here I am, sitting around like a young guy desperate for a good date (or any date), and just waiting and hoping. I really would love for this to work out. Which is interesting in some ways, because the more I've been thinking about the future, the more I begin to think about trying to get into mental health as a "past life" basically. Which makes waiting for a job that will put me right back into it an interesting dichotomy. Hopefully it works out though and they can be just a little bit flexible with my schedule because I would definitely be making more money with this job, even on a part-time basis. Plus I wouldn't feel like my last 5 years was a complete waste at least (in regards to my education that is). 

Roomie came home a little over two weeks ago and had something fun to report. Apparently someone I considered a decent acquaintance that worked through school asked about me the other day and then she provided her input on the situation. From her perspective, I am "someone who needs love" to function. She thinks that I "just let love take priority and fell behind in school." Essentially, it became obvious that she truly has no idea what she was talking about. If she knew me at all she would have known that dating has basically never been a priority of mine. Granted, I had some phases when I was certainly actively looking to date; however, I'm also the kind of guy who has been able to function with only physical interactions. I have definitely had my share of friends with benefits and done more than well with that. I definitely had to turn down some dates with fuck buddies because I was not at all looking for more than that. So to hear someone say that she feels I just can't function without someone loving me is hilarious. I have enough love from friends and family that I certainly do not need a romantic relationship - it's a choice that I'm making right now. After hearing all of this though, I did have to let Jared know that he ruined my life (yet again!) and he abruptly apologized for it. I'm still in the process of cutting off ties to professional organizations and insurance companies who want my money. I wish there was a quick and easy way to say "yo everyone - I'm out." It's also interesting still having people on my Facebook profile from the program as well as still trying to stay close with one friend in particular. It makes me feel a little bit insecure at times and like a total failure; however, I then realize that I was truly screwed and continue to be screwed because of our flawed justice system. Particularly this flawed ass 6th circuit bullshit. These people gotta get their shit together. 

Ooohhhhh freaky cats picture: 

The background is where it's at - my little creeper-boy. 

What the hell is all this "arctic bomb" talk going on anyways? Why didn't we stick with "polar vortex?" I feel like it's a better description of what is happening here in Ohio. Plus it doesn't sound like a shot that I would take at the bar the next time I'm there. But if it were a shot, I would bet that it was minty flavored and I wouldn't really be a fan anyways. You know what else shot sucks though? A 252 - just had one for the first time the other night. The night that I got a ride home from a friend who is also the bartender. It was a hazy night overall, but I made it home safely. That is, after my phone had been dead for most of the night. Jared was pretty pissed by the time I got home which I surely didn't blame him for. This was Monday when this happened. It was an exciting Monday for the most part (at least for me). It started with work which went by quickly then I went home and napped until I met some people out at Taco Monday - tacos for like $1.50 each (chicken and beef) at a bar down the road. So we started there, hung out for a bit and eventually went to the bar. The bar was dead inside - maybe two other people there besides the 5 of us who drove down to hang out. Eventually more people showed up but by then it was getting late and I was a few drinks in. My friend who bought me the 252 had to be carried out of the bar. Also, I was the youngest guy in there for quite some time - I'm not sure I've ever felt as much like a piece of meat then that night. I won't lie, some of the attention was definitely fun, but then some of it was not, especially when they all start to get catty and I felt like I was being portrayed as a possession that was briefly fought over. It was weird. 

The trip to Disney World happens in a few weeks and I'm mostly excited about that. I have some spending money on the way so that should help. One thing that I should mention about Disney though: we have a history. Not necessarily a good history though. And in disney's defense, it's not really his fault. Disney was supposed to be the highlight of one of our trips to Florida when I was in my teens. I had never been to Disney before; I had the luxury of going to Dollywood (yes, like Dolly Parton's theme park) when I was much younger (about 5 I believe) and I had been to Wyandot Lake and the Columbus zoo and COSI (the interactive science museum, not the brunch-time restaurant), but never Disney. My mom bought the tickets through AAA a few weeks before we were scheduled to go, which good for my mom! Doing things early isn't really her thing (I know the feels). She bought tickets that gave us access to ALLLLL of the parks at the time. Anyways the trip down went pretty smoothly and blah blah blah. We made it to Disney and we had a pretty solid first day. The plan was that next day, we were gonna hit up the next park. Well the tickets from AAA had different ideas. While we were there and trying to get anywhere else around Disney, we had the pleasure of learning that the tickets we bought didn't have that function ... We were screwed. I was not pleased and really not totally impressed with what I saw of Disney anyways and so what happened for a good bit of the time that we were there is that my dad and I hung out outside and around the hotel while everyone else went out and about. I've been assured that we will have access to all of the parks this year. Moreover, I'm looking forward to being a grown ass man and enjoyin some of the more adult places around Disney. However, there will be sooo many kids on the trip with us and a bossy boyfriend. I generally don't do bossy very well, and certainly won't do it well on vacation when I'm trying to relax and do some things that may not be part of the intended plan that Jared has so I'm anticipating that we will butt heads. We shall see.

I need money so badly and I really don't foresee myself being at target any longer than I have to. Also those bastards better have accurately recorded my vacation days since I told them right before they even agreed to hire me. Also, I'm not exactly sure how to work the system to make sure of all that anyways, so I'm doubly hopeful. I'm fortunate to have a job, but also not a fan of being talked to like I am much less educated than I am which does happen on ocassion while I'm there. 

I need to go to the gym ... May need to get my own membership since Jared likes going in the mornings and I'm not really a fan and can't go without him since I don't have my own membership. 

Can't remember whether or not I've done this already, but I'll leave you all with a quick snipit of my life: